MAHAYANA SUTRA

CHAPTER TWO. ATTAINMENT OF KUNDALINI YOGA. PART 1


KHEMA-TAISHI "I WAS LIGHT AT THAT TIME"

Khema-Taishi.....original name: Hisako Ishii. 27 years old.
Attained Kundalini Yoga on June this year (1987).

The program of the spiritual practice in the isolated room of Khema- Taishi.
(From June 19th to 23rd. From 24th she attended the intensive seminar of Aum, and the program changed everyday.)

06:00 to 12:00 Vayaviya Kunbhaka Pranayama.

12:00 to 16:00 Kriya Yoga (Sankapraksarana Kriya, Dauti, Neti, Basti and Gaja Karani) (She mainly wrote her diary in this time).

16:00 to 19:00 Tsandali (Pranayama).

19:00 to 02:00 Tsandali (meditation).

02:00 to 06:00 sleep (In fact, Khema-Taishi kept having the awakening state, so that she only took 2 to 3 hours of sleep in average.)

ENLIGHTENMENT, DEATH, INSANE - THERE IS NO OTHER WAY LEFT

June 19th (Fri)

I have just finished my Kriya Yoga. Approximately2 to 3 kilograms ofloss than what I used to be before entering this spiritual practice. Though I began my practice yesterday night, I was down because a lotof work to do prevented me from sleeping on the previous day. I haven't learned by heart the meditation of Tsandali yet. I need to memorize quickly.

There will be only four hours of sleep given from today. I shouldbe indipendent. I must do my best. Various phenomena indicates that I shall never be able to attain enlightenment in this life if I do not attain enlightenment now.

Enlightenment, death, or insane; there are only three paths left for me.

Wake up at 6 o'clock. Begin Vayaviya. As I practice as usual, I began to hear something which I had never heard before from my right ear which made me surprised. Somewhere within my right ear, I heard the sound like something turning like shulu-shulu-shulu- shulu.... At the same time, sound occured at my right space. Hyuuu, pati, not so big sounds.

This sound soon disappeared. Little after that, my body began to jump while doing Rechaka Kunbaka in Vayaviya. I used to experience shivering, but this time it is clear that it is Darduri Siddhi. At the same time, I felt my body becoming lighter.

This made me perplexed. If I let my body jummp as it is, the length of Kumbaka decreases, which makes me feel that the ecstacy does not rise. The light is not so strong. When I used to have only shivering, my body became numbed, red light spreaded, and energy rose at the time of Puraka. Thinking of the possibility that the levitation can be the waste of energy, I write a memo to the Master and asked Ms. H to bring it to him. The answer is "Don't worry, give everything to it." My tension disappears. What a pleasure.

At the time of Rechaka Kumbaka, fear occurs for the retainment of the breath. Though I keep doing Kumbaka until it suffers me, I compromise at the middle point. I encourage myself thinking, "No, it shouldn't be like this.". After the words of the Master, this fear decreased little by little.

As I keep having Darduri Siddhi up to the limit of my breath in Rechaka Kumbaka, ecstacy returned to me at the time of Puraka. Whole body become numbed, and I am covered in the clear bright red (yellow). But Kumbaka do not last long. Jarandara Banda is being released before the suffering appears. Perhaps my Banda is not in precise manner. I feel like vormitting. I could understand the reason why the exhale for this Pranayama should be like vormitting. When I make a voice like vormitting, the feeling of vormitting disappears. Perhaps it is taking the bad vayu out from the body. There is nothing I can do about the pain of my legs. Padmasana can't last long. I put the carpet which was given from the Master vertically because my body is jumping forward.

At the interval of Vayaviya, I often go into the Astral world. I am living and acting in the Astral world. I am in the intermediate state not knowing whether I am awakened, or sleeping.

I become conscious by myself, and think, "I must go on with my Vayaviya." and goes back to my practece.

I lost my sense of time. Usually I am in "time", but now I don't know how long did the time passed. It seems like the recognition of the fact that the time is relative.

Three hours of the Pranayama of Tsandali. This was much easier than other practices since I am used to this technique. However, compared to other practice, I easily fly to the Astral world since my consciousness can't be fixed even at the time of Pranayama. I immediately return and go back to Pranayama. This goes on and on. The sitting posture is not stable

FLYING TO THE ASTRAL WORLD

June 20th (Sat)

Vayaviya, 6 hours. Body jumps as yesterday. Sometimes the fear for Kumbaka appears, but it disappears as I go on. Ecstacy and light; as usual. Today I heard various sounds; chirp like "shulu shulu, the sound of bell, and slightly I heard some melody. Since I do Kumbaka up to my limit, the breath becomes rough as I finish each breath. I adjust the breath for a while. This is the time I go into the Astral world. Again, I went to the usual Astral world today.

Only once did the Master appeared in the Astral world. He gave me the lecture on detachment from the world and from the desires. He told me, "Since I am detached from the world and from desires, I do not recieve karma even if I practice Shaktipat. And he used his hands and explained to me.

After Kriya Yoga, I measured my body weight and found 0.6 kilogram of loss. As I take meal, there is a phone call from the Master. I says that he will come today or tomorrow. I am glad. I should do my best.

Today I immediately begun the Sankapraksalana Kriya after Vayaviya though I was completely exhausted. It won't go down easily. It should go down easily because I eat only once a day. Perhaps it is because my vayu is rising. It takes time for me to drink up the water with lemon and salt or else I may vormit (as yesterday). After drinking 1.3 litter, most of them changed into water. Then I drink hot water and vormit it. There were a lot of lemon water still left in the stomach.

I always have head ache and feeling of vormitting whenever I practice Sankapraksalana kriya. But today it is much better than yesterday. Today, my head become numbed, and both of my outer calves became numbed. Perhaps the bloodstream is not good enough. It became little better as I concentrate on the crown of my head. But then there appeared the numbness from my head to my nose. It seems that the bad parts and unpurified parts is having pain.

Various meaningless thoughts appeared as the concentration decreases while practicing the Pranayama of Tsandali. human face(wierd) appears and disturbs my visualization. First I thought it is devil, but I decided to ignore thinking that it is something inside me.

when I visualize Amogasiddhi, tall good shaped man appeared wearing white gown. His hair was black and curled, and his eyes were big. However, I ignored him because I don't know whether he is a good man or a bad man.

Various thoughts appeared and disappeared - about my past, present, my work, and so forth. This makes me recognize how dirty my subconsciousness is.

Once I entered somewhere, but the Master called me back. I think he told me that it was not the place where I should go to. I don't remember where it was, but I thought it was a good world.

Next is Tsandali(meditation). I visualize with the text in my hand. As I rise my energy, chant the phrase for Ludra's knot, and concentrate on my crown of my head, I began to talk about Mr. A with Mr. J. Then I lost consciousness and flew to other world again. I return and think how dark tendency I have.

As I was flying to various Astral world while visualizing, Master came and gave me energy. It was clear and subtle energy.

My mind became calm. I am relieved and filled with light.

He said, "You were stucked at Lung (wind) as I had expected. This was the reason why you couldn't do Tsandali. Since I pulled you up to 'space', from now you will be able to do Tsandali."

I began my Tsandali after that and immediately flew to the Astral world. However, I felt something cold falling down. The remained 38 minutes passed by quickly.

ONLY THING IS TO ATTAIN ENLIGHTENMENT

Sleeps at 2:00 AM. I had a dream. Ms. H do not come to wake me up. Perhaps it is already time for me to wake up. I looked into my watch and it was 9:00. Three hours had already passed. I was flying in the air in my dream. It was similar to the dream which I had seen long ago.

On that very moment, Ms. H came to wake me up saying, "Time to wake up!". It seems that I woke up once in my dream.

6:00 AM. Vayaviya. The light turns in the darkness everytime I finishes each breath (with my eyes closed). Perhaps it is because of the enpowerment from the Master yesterday. As I bear my Kunbaka and my body begins to vibrate, white light twinkles at the outside of my closed eyes. First I thought it was because of the vibration of the body. I momentarily stop my body, but the light remains. I retain my breath up to my limit, and then inhale deeply.

Today I decided not to jump. Big movement prevents me from going into the state of ecstacy, because it is not stable. I counted how many times I practice Vayaviya. It was little more than 50 though I expected to be 60.

Ms. H had just told me that sometimes silence goes on for about 30 minutes. I don't remember. Perhaps I was in the Samadhi of dark tendency.

The Master came while I practice Kriya Yoga. He told me that my voice is much clearer. It is because he purified my Chakra in my throat while enpowerment yesterday. Master says that he lost his voice. I am very sorry. He always takes my karma for me. I had been accumulating bad karma from the beginningless past. I must repay him for his favor.

The only thing I can do now is to attain enlightenment!