MAHAYANA SUTRA

CHAPTER TWO. ATTAINMENT OF KUNDALINI YOGA. PART 3


MAITREYA-TAISHI.
"RESURRUCTION, THE REVIVAL OF THE SAVIOR"

Maitreya-Taishi.....original name: Fumihiro Joyu. 25 years old.
Attained Kundalini Yoga on September this year (1987).

The program of the spiritual practice in the isolated room of Maitreya-Taishi.

July 12th to 23rd

the analisys of one's worldly desires all day. No technical practice at all. (Vayaviya Kunbhaka Pranayama is added on the last three days.)

July 24th to September 19th

6:00 to 9:00 Tsandali (pranayama)
9:00 to 15:00 Vayaviya Kunbhaka Pranayama
15:00 to 19:00 Kriya Yoga (Sankapraksarana Kriya, Neti, Dauti. Basti and Gaja Karani once in three days instead of Sankapraksarana Kriya)
19:00 to 2:00 meditation (Tsandali, analisys of one's worldly desires using Jnana Yoga, repentance of bad karma in the past, and so forth.)
2:00 to 6:00 eating and sleeping
From July 27th, 2 pranayamas and 500 times of worshipping to throw five bodies on the ground before meditation (total of 1,500 tiems)

THE PATH OF BODDHISATTVA

I was already told from June about entering isolated room for spiritual practice.

In fact, I were to enter this intensive practice much later, but it was decided to experience the spiritual practice in isolated room so as to work as the staff at New York Branch Center which was planned to be established on November.

At first, I was told to begin this practice from October, but since it seemed to be difficult to attain enlightenment in 1 months, it was decided that I enter the practice earlier.

I heard about going to America on April when I was in the youth devision. It was the concrete salvation plan to establish a branch center somewhere around New York.

July 12th (Sun)

The first day for enttering the isolated room. The darkness of the room do not disturb me at all. All the more, I felt somewhat happiness being fully liberated from various stress that I had when I was working as a staff. I was told by the Master to analize my own karma by connecting three foundamental desires of "attachment which occurs from egoistic idea", "anger to protect oneself", and "laziness and ignorance to distinguish self and others" to my own experiences of the past.

Thie first week was lke building a basement for Jnana Yoga. According to each of my experience, I analized how three foundamental desires of human beings create our desires, how those desires make us unhappy, and what I can do to become happy in the real sense.

For the first three days, my conscious was not clear. The meal will be brought once a day in the dark space. Being told that I can sleep anytime. I was only told to think. There is no stress at all. It isn't noisy. And since there is no severe labour like in the time of Bhakti, I felt as if I was in heaven.

I felt very liberated, mind is not clear but warm feeling.

And as I looked into my working of mind, I found that I am attached to various things. So I tried to think that such things would not make me happy.

There are worldle desires such as: I want to be rich; I want to live as elite; or I want to succeed in society. Such desires existed. Or the pride which I have. For example, getting angry when fooled by others. Or the emotions toward parents or lover which I need to throw away for attaining enlightenment. After analizing that such things would not make me happy in the real sense, I had to face the wall that I couldn't think in such manner from the bottom of my heart.

July 21st (Tue)

Master came and poured me energy. A while after he left, suddenly my mind became unstable. I analized over and over so as to detach. Lover, parents, and worldly desires attacks me with strong emotion. It suffers me jsut to think, or just to have some thoughts. To sleep is also not easy, perhaps it is because I don't move my body.

On 5:00 morning, the meditation of Guyasamaja in Tsandali made me comfortable which helped me to sleep.

July 23rd (Thu)

Master came and I recieved his energy for the second time. Concerning with the mental unstability, I was told, "That is good. The desires which was hidden had appeared. And you should not run away from them. You should dissect your unleasant ideas. Don't be afraid of the mental changes.". Even this consciousness is not myself. So there is no need to annow so much. I decided to to observe them as objective as possible.

LONG WAY TO GO

At one stage, I was caught in the feeling that I am thinking based on desires everytime I think of something. I greatly suffered by recognizing that I couldn't detach from such emotion though I wanted to detach. I became unable to go on. I can't sleep because there is no phyiscal fatigue at all. Though I want to think, since I know that I have to detach from desires when they arises, I feel, "Not again!". There were such hard time.

I could get used to that situation on approximately after 10 days. It became not so much suffering so as to prevent my sleep.. Of course they still appear because they haven't been completely eradicated yet. But compared to the beginning, my mind can prepare for the appearance of desires thinking, "It came again...". I felt I could overcome one big hardship.

Also, I recieved the new program from the Master; Vayaviya Kunbaka Pranayama, Pranayama ofTsandali, the meditation of Tsandali, and Kriya Yoga. I were to practice the techniques of Kundalini Yoga and the meditation of Jnana Yoga at the same time.

July 27th (Mon)

The crown of my head began to get numbed. Perhaps it is because the energy got stronger. While doing the Pranayama of Tsandali, I could see the belt of lights in rainbow color.

Today's practice begun from worshipping to throw five bodies on the ground. In the closed room on the middle of the summer, sweat comes down like a waterfall. When I felt hardship, I said to myself, "This suffering leads to the great pleasure called enlightenment. If I suffer little now, I will be happy later.", which helped me to finish up with this practice.

July 30th (Thu)

From today, since the Master is going to Egypt for about 1 month, his disciple who had already attained enlightenment were decided to come everyday instead of the Master. He was completely different compared to the state before he attained enlightenment. I was surprised by his atmosphere, sharpness, and the energy which was emitted.

I recognized what does it means to attain enlightenment. And at the same time, I strongly felt that I have a long way to go.

August 7th (Fri)

Finds difficulties in technical practice. No spiritual experience. I shall practice enough so that I won't have to be ashamed when the Master returns two weeks later. This will be the proof for my belief toward him.

August 10th (Mon)

I saw the vision of the white silver sphare while sleeping. Around it, there were something subtle shining in red,yellow, and blue.

August 23rd (Sun)

After practicing the Pranayama of Tsandali, my body was fixed, my legs rose, and I felt my body being twisted. It was like my body floating like a balloon.